Deadbeat Blogger

A random image off the web!

A random image off the web!

Strangely enough I don’t really have the desire to express myself too much … I guess being a writer at work I use up my entire quota of words in the office which doesn’t leave much for this blog. Ha ha! But I guess it’s also because I keep a daily journal (almost!) which does it’s job of getting things out of my system.

Why is blogging such a big thing now? I believe that most people blog to express themselves because I think at the heart of it blogging fulfils a very human need to be connected. We all want to be understood by others and we want to feel as if we’re not that alone on this blue & green marble of a planet.

Nobody wants to be just one of the crowd. We all want to feel special. Significant. We want our lives to mean something not just to ourselves but to other people too. Human beings are a strange lot in that sense – we want to be significant but yet so often we remain trapped in self-centredness. It takes great effort to look outside of one self really.

Why do I still blog then? I guess it’s because I hope that my experiences can help others work out things in their own lives. We do not have to make mistakes to learn from them. Why not learn from the experiences of others and in doing so grow a notch in our own lives? I was having a chat with my colleague Jason about writing and doing something that makes a difference and I’ve been thinking more seriously about penning down my thoughts properly into a manuscript. I have an idea for a book somewhere inside me and instead of writing disjointedly in this blog I should start on something right now. Shopping around for a publisher can wait … or perhaps I should just self-publish the book. Ha ha! Would anyone buy it? Hmmm … maybe, maybe not … but we’ve all gotta start somewhere right?

So what does my post today say about my blogging style? I’m a functional blogger … I don’t blog to express myself anymore … I think I blog because I wanna share something important to others about life. And I that’s what my book will be about really … life. It’ll be a book with pretty pictures too I hope … ha ha. I read nothing but comic books these days and find it uber difficult to finish a text-filled tome lately.

Anyways, till next time. Vaya con dios amigos.

Emotional “Flashing”

Emotional “Flashing”

Is it rude to over-expose what one is feeling even if it’s something as public & voluntary as a blog? Does it greatly damage the reputation of the person who is baring his heart and soul? The Bible says this in 1 Corinthians 10:23-24.

1 Corinthians 10:23-24
“Everything is permissible”—but not everything is beneficial. “Everything is permissible”—but not everything is constructive. Nobody should seek his own good, but the good of others.

Blogging in some respects can be a very selfish thing. I know I do it for my own therapy. Why do I just bare everything? Because it’s difficult having all these thoughts & emotions cooped up inside. It’s easier to just vent it out rather than to be silent about it. Maybe it’s a selfish thing to do … the question I’m asking myself is this; do I blog for my own good or do I blog for the good of others?

A part of me really would like something good to come out of this blog. Maybe what I’m going through can help encourage someone else who may be going through something similar? Maybe some of my deep thoughts will strike a chord in someone and lead them to discover what the Bible says for themselves? Maybe my foray into the music industry will also inspire someone else to pursue their dream to make a difference in our country and beyond?

What I do not want this blog to be is this – a meaningless exercise that I go through in putting my heart & thoughts down on paper. I want this blog to make a difference in the lives of the people who actually drop by regularly to read my posts. That’s what I want. So here comes the hard part … I leave it to all of you to make a decision through a poll.

Drop me a line. Let me know what you think. Because blogging for no reason means that I’d much rather stick to my own private journal and forego putting my heart on its sleeve here.

Quality Written

Amazed. Yes. Amazed. That IS the state I am in now. A M A Z E D. James (mah boss) pointed me to this blog called Fly or Die and boy can that girl write. Choice words does a BLOG make not just random rambling or prattling. By comparison my writing sucks! I spew out my thoughts and that my friends is creativity times zero. I forget that BLOGs in essence are a form of entertainment. Intellectual entertainment for the zombied masses who up till now have been inundated by MTV & Hollywood fare. Modern society has lost something precious the day the television was invented. Honestly … how many people actually read nowadays? Sadly I too have succumbed to the temptation of idiot entertainment. It ain’t wrong mind you but today as I write this my eyes have been opened & my senses awakened. Time to jumpstart reading in my life but where do I start? That, compadres is the 5 million peso question. Someone, anyone please suggest something to me; fiction preferred.

By the way, if any of you chance upon a magazine called Pinch do pick up a copy. It’s free! So all you cheapskates have no excuse to pick one up. My first published article lies within those pages. And YES it’s a paid article! I haven’t even been paid yet but it was a proud moment to flip through the mag and see my name in print. The article wasn’t worth that much monetarily but it’s a first in my portfolio of published work. An ego booster indeed.

Whoops! It’s 5:41 now and I’m supposed to drop by 1U to purchase some fake eyelashes for a video shoot tonight. I hope the salesgirl doesn’t think I’m some sort of cross dressing freak or something. Incidentally my iD is nudging to pick up a copy of Paper Mario since I’m gonna be in 1U anyway. Hmmm … we’ll see how. Guess we’ll find out tomorrow or something. Heh!

Wingapo (go watch Pocahontas if you want to know what it means).

Not Addicted After All

Mua ha ha ha ha! Looks like I’m not THAT addicted to blogging after all. It’s been almost 2 weeks since my last post and honestly the only reason I’m posting something now is because I’ve got nothing much to do at the moment. I’ve been chugging along in life for the past few weeks, trudging through the dreariness that makes up the life of Da Chris.

The past 2 weeks have been filled with quite a fair bit of activity for the Christmas production that I am currently involved in. Being involved feels somewhat trying as I’ve been at loggerheads somewhat with my best buhd over certain things. The whole production seems rushed & stressful due to the lack of time. If there are any of you DUMC-ians out there reading this give me a call now if you can help out because there is so much to do and so little time. We especially need volunteers who can help out especially in the editing of the video segments for the production.

Spiritually it’s been a dry period; a trek through an endless desert that seems to have no end. I stumbled onto an oasis yesterday morning and had a great time being quiet before God. Guess I gotta re-learn how to quiet my thoughts down so that I’ll be able to listen to His voice in the turmoil that is my heart & my mind. A myriad collection of things bother me and it’s so hard for me to sit down and quell these thoughts. This morning was a reprieve and it feels like today will be a good day because of the time spent with God.

On the gaming side, I visited my regular haunt in 1 Utama on Tuesday night and found to my delight that they had a copy of Paper Mario: The Thousand Year Door available there. That game received a monster review from both GameSpot and GameSpy. The biggest obstacle to getting the game is the hefty price tag of RM230.00. Original games are so expensive. Sigh … Well it’s not like I can’t afford to get it, I could but a nagging part of my conscience whispers to me that I really should save up my finances for something more important like a notebook. My PC at home is really growing old. The CMOS battery is dead (I could replace it, but I’m too lazy) and the computer takes a day and an age to boot up. Common apps take sometime to load too (of course I was itchified and installed MS Office 2003 this week but it was slow anyway when I was running Office XP).

Oops … looks like I’ve digressed somewhat. Back to gaming. I am currently in the midst of playing StarOcean III: Till The End of Time and well it’s not the greatest of RPGs but for some reason I feel like I should finish it since I started it already. The real-time combat system ain’t as good as Tales of Symphonia which somehow detracts a lot of fun from all the combat that my characters have to do to level up. The story ain’t that great; it’s standart Japanese RPG fare where main character discovers that he has great power and probably he’d end up saving the world. The game is pseudo sci-fi in a sense that the planets that Fayt (that’s the protagonist) ends up crashing on always seem to be fantasy-based worlds. His main weapon is a sword and well there’s magic too but it’s called “symbology” in the game. It’s a shame really as the game does have some interesting concepts. The voice acting is pretty terrible and the script feels like it’s been written by a 12-year old. On a positive note the game does have incredible CG cutscenes which plays out here and there. Very pleasing to the eye I must say. Impressive stuff. I suppose it’s hard for other games to compete with the Final Fantasy series of games. The production values in the FF series are far more superior but I suppose that’s because of the larger budget that goes into making the game; that and the most talented producer from Square Enix probably helms the development of FF.

Hmmm … it’s close to November. Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater is close to release and I hope it meets my expectations. For some reason I’ve grown to have a fondness for sneaker type games. There have been a fair number that have been released in the past few years; Tenchu, Spy Fiction & Splinter Cell to name a few. But so far none of them really can compare to the Metal Gear series. Splinter Cell was alright but after playing the past 2 games I felt that Sam Fisher’s adventures weren’t too cohesive. The story and gaming experience felt like it was being strung together rather disjointedly which is a shame really as Sam Fisher is such an uber cool character. Of course it helps that Fisher is voiced by Michael (Jester’s dead!) Ironside – one of the coolest militant looking actors in existence.

Keep posted for more ramblings. I sense one coming up very very soon. Heh!

Syndication On!

I’ve just activated a syndicated feed on the site. I never realized how handy it was being an ex-web developer until today. Adding stuff to this Blog is so easy and enabling different features makes it a whole lot more fun! Plus I just signed up to Ad Sense by Google so perhaps I’ll get some revenue from doing this. Heh heh!

For those of you who don’t know what a sitefeed is; look up a search engine by searching for RSS. You should be able to find out more about it. For those of you who are already using RSS readers just add my feed to your list of regular feeds using this URL http://surfgod.blogspot.com/atom.xml or click on the small orange XML logo on the right bar of this page. If you don’t yet have a RSS reader; check out Pluck … it’s a very nifty tool that integrates right into Internet Explorer.

Oowah … I can’t believe I just posted a blog so early in the morning. I think I’ve found a new addiction.

Ciaozers!

Epiphany

Oh wow … I can’t believe it’s been 2 years since I signed up for this account. Blogging has come a long way since then. Believe it or not, I’ve not posted anything here since I got this account and since I’m currently pretty bored sitting here at my part-time copywriting job I guess it wouldn’t hurt to write something. When I signed up for this I was a web programmer and right now I’m pursuing my dream to write. Talk about evolution or am I actually devolved? Whatever it is; I suppose I’m taking steps in the right direction … although one might argue that writing programs could be considered a form of writing too. Ha ha!

Pardon my ramblings but I’m just writing whatever comes to my mind at the moment. I have absolutely no point to make here and I have absolutely no reason to write. But I shall write on anyway …

After much self-analysis over the past 26 years of my life, I have come to the conclusion that I am addicted to escapism. (insert mad laughter here) How have I come to that conclusion some of you may ask? Well … I think it’s because I seem to find life as depicted in novels, comic books, movies and video games to be a heckavu more interesting ride than my own life. By comparison the exploits of a character or group of characters in every single one of these mediums is a whole lot more exciting than our boring mundane lives.

Anywayz, I’ve decided that this blog shall be dedicated to all my escapism exploits; everything from movies, books, comic books (comic books aren’t really books you know?), and my all time obsession right now … the magical & hypnotic world of video games. If you counted the number of hours I spend reading reviews, previews and gaming; I’d say I spend maybe 10 – 15% of my life losing myself in games.

So check back every once in awhile. I suppose writing is a much better way to spend my time compared to surfing around the same sites. It’s a much healthier creative outlet. Since I still have nothing better to do, I’ll probably write about some of the games I’ve finished playing recently.

Peace.